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February 2008
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Saturday, March 22, 2008








yoyoyoyyo! x) so long bo post liao, cause previous few days were very exciting and busy! x) had a lot a lot a lot of fun the past few days! hah .. so since its so exciting this will be a long post >x)


it all started on wednesday ..


when i went to this talk at discovery center! i thought was what activity sia, sign up before holidays le .. got like 20 people goig, then in the end cher say edwina never hand in the consent form so she must go home. but also good for her loh! she dunid stay in class with vincent they all do what survey xP so got a lot of people go still lah, noelle, lycia, sooriyah, yanxuan, brandon etc etc. in the end me kwunhin ivan and sooriyah sit in front part of bus with mrs loh mf. wa seh, ivan and her have a heated dabate lahr! what "nationalism which is associated with patriotism", what "individuals have the right to obtain choices they have" o_o knn! pro lahr, ivan de english. he should go debating! after get off bus we went to listen to a talk, though we were a little late .. and the talk turned out to be about ..


TERRORISTS!


i thought it was about economics or something cause is our class but mrs loh explain cause we were triple humanes students, should be able to handle this, aha .. so this guy told us about terrorist, hw they get people into their organisation. then terrorist do a lot of stuff too! like spreading tactics. then that guy show us how to CORRECTLY ambuse a person! x) guess we can do it to our teachers ay, bwahah ] then they show you what is the WRONG way to ambush someone. then they also apparently have a "Top 10 Terrorist video!"


startin from the 10th one it was some sniping of american soldiers .. then it went to suicide bombers .. then the top of the list was the bombing of a tank, then u can see the american soldier flying out from the top! o___o wadda hell man. they also print a lot of the movie "black hawk down" cause it shoes the islamic people winning the americans.


and and .. got one part they show these parents ask their opinions on osama. the mum says "i am very regretful to have only 2 sons to act as suicide bombers" the dad says "people like osama are hard to come by. he is a very good man" pangsai sia how they think.


after that we went to watch a video on mount everest! how those people climb it that is. we like watch movie like that, bought popcorn, bought candy floss, bought potato chips. everyone share share xD in the end i eat too much sweet stuff then the candy floss tastes like .. sugar, lol and the popcorn tastes like BUTTER .. o__o we watch the movie about hw they climb .. then 8 people die and everything, then the girls said tomorrow's cross coutnry they very motivated! xD



then after that very boooooring, so im not going to talk about it until at night ..


.. i was sittin da bus home when my dad called me, laLaLa . he told it it was my mum's bday! zOmg! heck, how could i forget .. ! after reaching home i got 50dollars from my mum for "reasons i cannto disclose" then went out to buy a cake at je, some great fruit cake!






then i decided this cake looks good with the candles on, so i took another picture with it ..






lol bwaha. i suddenly like taking pictures! xO its a drug man. ima luuuvo~



then it was thursday ..



on thusrday was crosscountry thing! me and vincent and jiajing went together, met mithunn on the bus! hwahahaha. then we went mac, and i went to sit with brandon and stacy and eunice while vincent and jiajing went to find the other guys. then ncc had to do road marshall when i dont. bwaha.



we had to go to the checkpoint but it started raining, and it was raining like CRAP .. so we were stuck there and shit, then brandon cannot squat properly, always put weight on my knee, so i was very suan, my muscles. then had some small chats with people around me, this girl called siti, yasmine, brandon, hongjie etc etc. then me and brandon change positions, lean on each other back so wont buay tahan.



and hor, i was a bit shoacked some people know my name lol. got one 3'3 girl know my name, and was like "weixuan is there lo" when atiqah asked where i was, and i dun even know her! o_____o wah?



after that we were dismissed, supposed class gathering but michael + bball boys + lycia + noelle and maybe some others i dno went out for bballin or something.



** I SHALL MAKE IT CLEAR I DO NOT LIKE MICHAEL**



xD i really dislike him, so insensitive, so noobie, people dunwan him around he think he very popular and shet. x) and his style of dressing is CRAP MAN. so outdated. wear shirt like lao ah pek lidat. xD



okay i should not be insulting someone so .. DIGRESS! xDD


in the end me + brandon + hongwee + stacy went as a group. we went brandon house first, walk a long long time then reach, half way met yujie they all. then brandon live in this private estate! xD rich kid lohr, we went up then had some lunch, change clothes then went out.


then then when we were wearin shoes stacy finish wearin le, go into lift but never press, so i quickly ran down to first floor press the button and the lift came down, then i waiting at the side and when the door open i BOO then stacy was like "EHH!" xD


we went to vivo after that, and we watched step up 2 first. was dam nice the movie, haha. got story plot and damn nice dance moves. all the characters were hot? xD most of them. then the dancing blew me away xD .. everyone should watch it xP and i wouldnt mind watching it again hah, i mean it was fantastic x)


OH YEAH! and at the start of the movie we found MISS CHUA! xO OMG WHAT ARE THE CHANCES OF MEETING HER MAN!@. we were at vivo, so far from our school. we were watching step up 2 at the same time! xD and she seemed to be meditating and shooed us away when we bothered her xP so funny loh xD but she dissapeared right after the movie so cannot take picture with her x(



but we went to a pet store, found all those cool lookin alaskan husky look-a-likes, these hamsters and these smaller 2month old dogs xD and they had this swing outside the store! xD



this was brandon, failed to get him with stacy xD


and this was me, xD was a bit bored anyway.


we went to gamestation right after that, played a lot of games,





first we played was this tavle hockey game thing and me team with hong wee, stacy team with brandon .. we played 2 rounds .. and guess what was the score? x)




of course me and hongwee won xD but by TEN. bwahaha, we pwnt them. x)





and we palyed daytona too, hongwee lost to brandon and brandon lost to stacy o______o dun see stacy small small okay, she racing won brandon xD i dunwan play cause i car game damn sucky.





and we played the afterclimax burner. car games i have no hope, plane games i pwn them x) and before i forget ..






this was the find the difference game we had! HAHA, stacy was pro, but i was proer without the camera. xD damn fun lah, we even managed to get into high score man! xP though only second. 3'208 rawks, hahr.


after this we went to catch ANOTHER movie. and i was joking about seeing mr sim cause im math rep of miss chua and stacy was phys rep of mr sim xD .. we watched leap years, very mushy and stuff, and its only for people who likes slow .. romantic .. and not much storyline people? .. it was a bit touching i admit, but not for people like me .. personally, i feel that the trailers for Valkerye and Iron Man tonnes more exciting xP and im so gna catch those 2 movies. turst me, you should watch it too xD



after this we went to eat, stacy eat so so so so slow! like this was how much left when me and hong wee finished ours . and she couldnt finish this LOL i mean this was like 4/5 left xO



after this we went home ..




and finally it was friday ..



lol i woke up at like 11, was playing computer when yujie pester me to go watch movie and go vivo AGAIN .. at first was reluctant, but after that he made me go .. so we called weinian and hongjie out, four people group like thursday xD ..



when went out it was raining BLOODY HEAVILY! xO and my shoes were soaked, from afternoon 2 till at night 10+ when i reach home lidat. was waiting at je interchange for they all a bit, then on the train at walked a crapload of nonsence, xP



hongjie acting emo! HAHA xP



after we reached vivo, we promptly got lost and was wondering to find the cinema, and we finally found it to see a LONG LONG QUEUE. at first wanted to see orphanage but the guy said front 2 rows left only, recommend us to watch vantage point saying it was a nice movie, damn right he was man!



we bought nachos and sugared peanuts thing, the peanuts was dam nice .. and is aw the iron man trailer! xD, so cool! the graphics totally rocks, and i cant wait for it to be released along with Valkerye! haha! x)



vantage point is a great movie, it replays the whole incident like 7 times, from different points of view. this idea was so creative! we started off at the start knowing a bit only, a few of us could see who were the characters who were going to stand out, like who is the terrorist and stuff, but after that we got more clues and were like "ohh! its like this!" this movie is a must watch! xP i mean, its storyline is very short if u see it as one, but the different points of perspective makes the movie awesome! xD



after movie yujie wanted watch another movie .. but i said naaaah, and we went to game station! BWAHAH.



we played the find the difference game ..



and you can see me + brandon + hongwee + stacy's high score! still standing! xP


we also played the table hockey game! me team with yujie and we won! bwahah, my team has proness! so can win! BWAHAH. of course, there is the pro called weixuan x) bwaha, i also team with weinian and but also won! hah! weinian cheat lohr, use arm to block de xD ..





and this was me and hongjie! bwahaha, i was the proest in this again, xP bwahah .


after that we went for some burger king and went home! HAHA ..


at home i took off my socks which were wet .. but and i was resting .. UNTIL I NOTICED MY BLISTER


OH MUH @!#$%NG GAWD. that bloody blister ._. baozha till like that .. looks so bloody disgusting xD and i had to tear the skin out .. but now its over bwahah xP

alright, thats all for today! see yeh people! x) cause im tired xO


7:11 PM

Sunday, March 16, 2008

its been almost 2 months since i broke up with kj .. but still, it feels awkward talking to her ..

there were many happy moments with her and all .. but it all ended tht day, the day she decided to go with her new boyfren. yeah, true, i got all depressed and stuff .. but i got over her .. supposedly ..

even we broke, she still holds on to me ..

` SPANK it! ;] says (11:59 PM):
can i have u back for only one night?


even though 1 month has passed she still cannot let go ..

` SPANK it! ;] says (12:07 AM):
just say three words to me
` SPANK it! ;] says (12:07 AM):
can u say it plz?


even though she has her new boy ..

unwanted says (12:19 AM):
i cant stop loving u?


love never was fair from the start anyway .. it never has been for me at least .. and doesnt seem to be settling any time soon ..

she feels unwanted ..

unwanted says (12:22 AM):
my dad is hearing me cry u know


like i didnt when she dumped me ..

my life's been in a mess ever since u came and left you knw ..

unwanted sent 3/16/2008 12:34 AM:
i know this msg wont send to u, but all i want to say is. i never stopped loving u wei xuan

you never stopped loving me but you just didnt loved me enough .. for you to get a new boy and such .. i never was that important to you was i?

youre crying arent you ..

» ♀ع١٥٧ع١٥٧♂ ' . says (12:23 AM):
do u knw hw many times ive cried over for u..


countless .. and the only girl ive even cried for ..

love hurts when you get it with the wrong person .. it has hurt for me .. tht and so much more .. all your promises and words were empty and meaningless after all, just to captivate me for those few moments .. im not gna go depressed over you forever ..

im sorry, i got over you kj, katherine. im over it now .. dont visit me please, dont send me birthday cards or valentines presents .. cause i dun wna remember about us.

if youre reading this .. im sorry i ever got together with you, for it has caused us more regret in the end than worth of the happiness throughout.

..

thnks you those who listened to me while i vented out through the period of 1 month, on and off. thnks mei, and those classmates who'v been sms-ing with me.

got over hell and the rest of it. hope it never visits me again . i knw i'll find my other half in time to come . all i know is it wont be you kj .

3:40 AM

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Bwaha! a lot of stuff happen in the past 2 days! xP and a lot of fun and gd things happen! bwaaaahaha.

on thursday i got my new phone! x) actually supposed to be my mum's .. but she say she wont use a lot of the new phone's functions so she gave it to me! and then she used my older one xP then i went to try to find a new bag and a new pair of shoes but cannot find one i liked xO but i still got my new phone. BWAHA. but that night i had to put a lot of new info cause my phone was giving me a lot of problems x(

on friday! i woke up at 8.30, set up my phone stuff again, then at 9.15 i got 3 shirts and 3 shorts, put in my bag then went to je. kenny and vincent keep fan wo lohr. say what they reach ler. in the end i still waited for the big group for 20 minutes. but when i was using phone sms-ing them ahr, my ahyi suddenly boo me! o___________o i was like zomg who is this! then i realise was her xD, she going to work so late dehr o_o ..

after that we got onto the train, got a lot of people.. hong jie, kenny, weinian, yujie, kengboon, davin, lycia, andrew, brandon, leanne, malcolm, yangda, jeremy .. but then noelle never come! cause she go visit some people she made me say i wouldnt tell o_o .. but we had looooads of fun! on the train we talk a lot of crap. crap crap crap crap crap. then after that got this old man come in! o____________o he smell of urine and dabian mix tgt with a lot of rotten stuff! then the metal railing he touch OILY DE. ZOMG WTF HAXKOR! then vincent very insincere, keep saying, i cannot stand the smell, so disgusting. xO but in the end i also cannot tahan. then move away a bit .. =x

when reach the station at payalebar or smthn i kena stomach ache go dabian x= then everyone wait for me a bit .. then in the end we still waiting for dionne. so we outside the station play a bit of bball, then andy say he very pro, then kenny always leap at the ball and stuff, very amusing x).

after that we sat the bus to east coast there . AND GUESS WHAT? o________o someone stick a panty liner onto the bus seat. .___. wah sian, everyone was like, wtf is this doing here xO

after we reach we found a spot put all our bags .. then me lycia davin malcolm weinian zhiyuan and andy went to find bball court. we got lost a bit before we found it which was soooooo freaking far from the east coast place. but we played a lot xD and my team always managed to win. bwaha. >x) no, since im humble, i shall say im very lousy in this line of sport LOL. but really lahr, my team really won everything xP. starting me + davin + lycia vs weinian + zhiyuan + andy. andy always knock people de lohr, like he jump at them lidat. at the start i keep missing xO so its lycia and davin who scored. then zhiyuan also a bit tyco de .. he 3pointer either airball or silent. so its TYCONESS x) after tht brandon came to join us and this pri schl guy called timothy came and said he wna play too. so brandon join my team and timothy joined weinian's. after that we really played quite a bit, quite tiring and then we went to some mamastore to buy a lot of water xP after that got 2 guys come wan play after timothy left .. then one is very humble de, the other damn show off. keep saying he cam am1 ppl and damn action kia de. the teaming was me + humble guy + andy vs davin + lycia + action kia. after a while brandon take over lycia. but we won 7 - 1 xP not brandon/davin fault luhr. just that that action kia too solo ler, miss every single shot. so we pwnt him xP i score like 4or5 then the other person score 2or3 xP

int he end after they left we played 5v5! my team got me brandon andy lycia and vincent. then other team was kengboon kenny davin zhiyuan and weinian. we at first scored like 5 or something, then davin say what last ball is winner. then they score last ball they win .. WHERE GOT FAAAAAIR. we score 5 lohr xD.

then then, we made our way back to east coast, but we all kena blister cause play without shoes. and me and davin got sprained ankle cause we knock into each other while jumping then never land properly. so we went back at rest a while, and april and jolene came. we then walked to mac' ate a bit, then some went cycle some went to lan. cycling group was.. jolene april lycia leanne dione andrew clarence zhiyuan jeremy weinian and honjie. i in the end last minute join cycling but they left ler.. so i chiong too i saw hongjie! hong jie was struggling in rollerblades, so he hung on the me and i chiong to weinian. but in between got dam lot of pauses cause he dam heavy my legs dam suan. after we catch up weinian we race with him a while, then hongjie say i go first. so i cycle bloody fast again.. dno how long.. then in the end lycia and the rest took another path, make me chiong wrong way, until i realise got cars beside me then i uturn found zhiyuan. then we chiong a while then saw the rest.

clarence say be dam action, come race with me. after a while he pum chek. no more air, then i lax lax go paste him xD we stopped halfway at this hawker place, i got some mango ice thingy and was drinking while riding with one hand xP but a bit of my mango ice spilt on me so my hands were sticky .. but who cares, we went to the beach after returning bikes!

we all wan go into water .. but have wallet and handphone .. so they put the phones into my SHOE? o_o then i was wearing 2 shorts mah, one is beach pants billabong de, another is jz basketball cotten shorts or smthn .. i took off the baskbetball shorts, then put the wallets inside then we went to paly water!

clarence was like a big fat cannonball pig. jump into water we say got tsunami. then andrew also take off shirt go in, jeremy also. then we made the girls wet, andrew got this plastic bag and filled it with water then pouring it on jolene x) then cause april splash water on me so i pulled her into the water =D but after a while of relaxing my legs cramped cause i used too much strength while cycling .. at first jeremy say what push the soles of the leg thing .. but no use, then jolene try .. also no use. so they went to play while i was left with hongjie and i was cursing to the sand xD after 20 minutes my cramps gone, so i played with the water, took off shirt go in ..

after a while clarence was like COMPARING MAN BOOBS. i was repulsed. BLAAARGH! he was like prodding it and squeezing it .. i mean wasnt he repulsed by it? ._. then he was like "weinian! ni de you mei you wo de na me da!" ._________. rofl? then he keep saying, where all the girls? here no more chio bu. you wan go find them anot? aiyo, you fat dabian. you wan find them they dunwan see you lahr. xDD.

after our beach fun, we went to change clothes and stuff .. then me and kenny and vincent left first, kenny went home, we went to westmall. and i got a new zinc bag there! x) looks quite alright .. though not to expensive, cause ive been spending a lot lately .. the zinc bag person, a teen girl or something maybe around 20? dam polite and was very frenly xD then she keep saying i was very familiar o_O.

after tht we went eat at the food court .. ate till so full .. then we went home.

after reach home i did msn with a lot of people .. talked to noelle ask her why she no come .. why mithunn no come .. mithunn no come cause of rafeek lohr. say what councillers must help out then pick on mithunn .. damn u rafeek! Dx then talked with zoie and huifang and huiying and a lot of people! =DD

then at 11+ candia mei came online! xP kept talking to her. very fun bwahaha. then cheered her up a bit before i went to bath at 1. but i nvr got to say gdbye cause her bro came home while i was bathing then she said gdbye to me while i cant xO but later she say she will sms me today .. im waiting for your sms ahr mei! x)

so nw this morning i woke up with sore legs and bad blisters x( hope they go soon xD ..

thts all for nw! 2 exciting days x) but schl starting soon ler! x( i hope it will be as fun as my holidays .. though most probably not.. ><

see yah all then! x) 2 MORE DAYS TILL SCHOOL STARTS! xO

12:09 PM

Monday, March 10, 2008

lols haha! today bloody fun ..


the morning i was supposed to wake up at 6.15, reach jec at 7. but i woke up at 7.15~! OH EM EFF GEE MAN! xD i was supposed to bring everyone to acjc lohr, but i late. then i made wanping wait 30min for no reason, then jason had to find his way. then i sit taxi and fetch kokwai to acjc. taxi fair damn ex lohr, my house to buenavista only cost 11$ liao. damn you taxi fare man.


then when reach acjc then mrchua said he wasnt coming! oh no, hes sick. damn it. xD then we found out we were gna to be seperated into different groups .. so i was wondering how would my group mates be like. cause last time camp my group damn sucky, so i was hoping it wasnt .. and it aint! x)


my group have estee, elaine, shangjun and jahannes. then facilitators were michelle and audrey. my group very de fun x) even though at start i found out elaine was a violent girl and hit people very hard de. playing Wacko that time she hear my name like dun like my name lidat, then turn around and whack my head so hard. i very shocked lohr, i wasnt even listening to the person saying name, then suddenly got someone hit me .. sabohr own group also, very clever xP did some chicky dance, dong dong shen zhi, yao yao pi gu, then we go into seperate groups.


we discussing tht time ah, johannes very "mother nature loving" de. anything he will sink and burn. paper, burn it. metal, burn it. ceramics, crush and burn. boat, burn and sink. xD we laughing like hell then. then we start presentation, the two girls doing presentation, boys doing the drawing and stuff. but in the end johannes go join the girls and left me and shangjun. but shangjun writing damn nice lohr, his drawing also damn the nice. then we complete the poster tht time we very satisfied! cause got the facilitators help us find the pictures, make our poster look very nice! x) they also made some ads.


then after tht we went for lunch, met up with jason, kwunhin, wanping etc. for a while, then went back to groups x) it was then me shangjun and elaine first decided to make a mini skit about this auction! then i talking very stupid stupid, elaine was like laughing non-stop. then after that we went to present our skit, i messed up a tiny bit then everyone was laughing and i couldnt help but laugh along x). budden in da end kokwai's group won lohr. but i see kokwai slack de. SLACKOOOOOR! hah. but gd for him x) his group got one girl present quite well de xD but the guy a bit dno why dun have, as wht mrchua would put, the "xfactor!". so i felt the girl better hah.


after tht we had this bloody long finals. the NUS ppl keep firing questions until i a bit sian and wan to retort, but too bad the bell rang. so might as well dun extra.


in the end we took group pics together! x) the whole group haha. if i remem clearly, audrey on the most left, then followed by johannes, shangjun, me, estee, elaine then michelle xD.


then nw at home very long time havent bath .. just now talked to estee and elaine xD..


today damn fun, so glad i actually signed up for this .. but 29th march acjc have an event .. dno whether wna go anot haha. if wan go i think i'll call kwunhin kokwai, maybe some other classmates, then maybe call estee and elaine and shangjun etc .. xD



okaaay, so now for the summary for previous two days .. umm,. me and kj not on very good terms .. she actually swore to me and stuff .. i admit i was a bit pissed at her .. so i ignored her and stuff .. but she quarreled with me and billy and another fren, jamie .. so .. i dno .. i mean she broke up with me and stuff, and nw she suddenly says she loves me again .. and that she loves me so much .. but i dno why, it feels so different around her now .. after we broke .. i dno .. should i patch it up with her .. ? i feel not .. but could anyone give me advice .. hah ..


ah well, end of post xP c yeh all next time. hope i'll post soon yahr?

9:23 PM

Monday, February 11, 2008

ever since 3rd feb .. this month started badly ..

it was bad enough .. breakin up ..

now someone has to fckg die ..

today is supposed to be happy .. exciting .. nervous .. fuck, its velentines. why the fk does he have to die . his parents loved him so much ..

quarreled with his mum .. jumped off the window ..

valentines is supposed to be for loving each other parents, children and all ..
and his parents loved him so much ..

they meant him well, scolding him for his mistakes ..
he couldnt take the stress any longer ..

they provided him with so much, a son they had for 15 years ..
he ended it in those few seconds ..

my parents were crying .. we had kneo nthat boy for 2 years .. he was such a nice guy .. i remember when i first met him .. he showed me his room .. showed me his toy models .. talked with me .. he was a cheerful person ..

i ate with him .. laughing at the jokes he told me ..

now all that's left .. is so little ..

hes at hospital ..

the doctors say he wont live through this ..

he probably wont live through today ..

and his parents loved him so much ..

they didnt mean to stress him out ..

and i miss him his cheerful character so much ..

and it was just so ironic in school .. the mrgerald said .. what a tragedy.. mrsliow showed us the song .. the hero in you .. its a long road .. the emptieness you felt will dissapear ..

and it was supposed to be a happy day ..

the time my father received the call .. was at 12.01..

on valentines day ..

8:27 PM


life really doesn't like me ..

waking up every morning feeling refreshed ..

leave the class at the end of the day feeling happy ..

reach my house feeling relatively alright ..

turn off my computer feeling confused and depressed ..

come out of my shower feeling empty ..

typing a new post, feeling fucked as i review how screwed up life has gotten me..


when you said you hated me, i was so hurt .. cause i loved you so much ..
i spilt everything out to some people .. and they helped make me happy .. and i slowly got over you .. since you had billy ..

when you said you loved me and you dumped billy .. i knew i should have been happy .. but i couldnt bring a smile to what you had said .. cause deep inside it still hurt that much .. after you said at the start if it was okay with me being your friend only ..

when you said no one could replace me .. i thought of billy .. how you had loved him more than me even though for only a few days .. all you wanted was whether i still liked you ..

i still dont know the answer .. i dont have it .. i dont know when i will have it ..

you said when you needed me i was never on ..

you said when you needed a hug i wasnt there ..

you said when you needed a kiss i couldnt be by your side ..

baby .. my head tells me to love you but my heart tells me not to .. cause it doesnt wna be hurt again ..


i know you will be reading this zoie .. how you knew i was troubled .. hah, you know me all too well .. you were not the only person i lied to that i was alright .. i lied to everyone by my actions at school .. only those who came to my blog ever knew,..

i need a bit of guidance .. need some advice .. and tonnes of cheering up ..

should i have met you in the first place anyway .. the happiness you gave me .. the sadness you wrought .. i dont know ..

8:27 PM

Sunday, February 10, 2008

eh ,..

i broke up with kj.. i got over her..

she got her new boy.. she ditched me..

whenever she talks to me i feel empty, cause she treat me like her best buddy only..

i had to deal with the confusion she got me..


during the chinese new year i got over our relationship more or less..

and then she asked me questions..

what would you do if i said i love you..

what would you do if i kissed you..

would your answers change if we were together again..

i answered.. i would feel empty..

i said, i dont know..

and for the last one.. i dont know what to answer..

then after a long time she asked me whether i still liked her..

i typed..

- Royα†ч тσqεтнεя ιи тнε sиσωfιεld . ωαтcнιиq тнε flαкεs slιρ bч . says (12:09 PM):
im confused..

i wonder if she knows whenever she talks to me i feel empty..

depressed..

when ever she laughs and i feel dead inside..


` xD LOVE you? says (12:11 PM):
hahahaha

and when i was just being happy from chinese new year..


` xD LOVE you? says (12:13 PM):
well now i HATE u

..

12:03 PM

Saturday, February 9, 2008

happy chinese new year too all! xP although it might be a bit late, but who cares.

these 3 days were so tiring leeeeei xD cause every night sleep at like 2am cause we always go baifang till very late heh.

on wednesday..

after coming back from school, celebrating mithunn's early birthday, i stay home play computer lohr, nothing else to do. then at 5plus we had mini-reunion dinner with parents, grandad and aunt. the rest of my relatives on dad's side were in fuzhou and one uncle in fuzhou too, the other in hong kong working. all different places lah, =x cannot have full reunion dinner.

then after eating all the food we went to grandma's house, the one on my mother's side. then we down there having a lot of fun, play play with all the cousins, play xbox, watch tv, fool around. then at 12am we watch fireworks!








it was so freakin' close, like 30 metres away and cause i was taking the video it was so looooooooud! i one hand cover ear other holding handphone video. that why one ear was like hurting a lot. but my cousins all very noisy throughout the video loh haha. and the one blocking the video at one certain point was my bro. so fat loh, block my camera. then the noisy guy was my other cousin xP and after that we fooled around as usual, then at 2am went back home sleep.

on thursday..


went back to grandma's house again, haha. then this time is bai nian, get ang pau! xP then got a lot ang pau, but since i so gd boy, i give them to my mum. waaahaha. then she keep the money and stuff. then after that nothing to do at first play with cards, play blackjack, play some card games and what heartattack, hit each other hands so pain xD but after that really bored, so my cousin put some animes wan us choose. but my brother and some younger cousin all want digimon.. o_o, so i got to let them all. then watch the lousy animation and stuff xD, after watch finish we watched ragnarok anime, slightly better than digimon, then watch naruto. then at night 2am go home again xDD haha. that day supposed to go to my dad's cousin's place de, but we postpone it to friday xP


on friday..


i woke up veeeeeeeeery late! very tired mah! then at 10wake up, by then my aunt and everyone all at my house le! then i met my umm, cousin? lols, she this year 19 years old loh, and at first i was doing econs project thing mah, so never talk so much. but after that talk a bit more, but also not that much, then after that i took down her phone number then after that i got to go grandma house agaaaaaaaain xP then my aunt gave us a "lecture" and we were talking a lot of nonsence and we were like laughing our heads off xP she kept telling us what happened when we were young and stuff and we kept making funny remarks xP then they all went for movies at 6 and i couldnt go. cause at 7.30 i going to my dad's cousin's place. then i play some psp, watch my cousin read her fanfics, which were so freakin' boring. then at 8 reach dad's cousin's house, they play some card games and my dad kept making fun of his cousin, who was 37 and single. and we were all laughing a lot cause everyone kept joking around. and at 2 we left and went home to sleep.


on saturday, today..


morning i wake up 10am and i was supposed go cheangming's place. then i go ask rachel where her house was and rachel was like "hey! cheang ming's house is at pasir ris." lols what the heck, thats like 24 stops. then go bath, change clothes sit mrt, took like 1 hour 30 minutes then reach pasir ris. i only go there, walk a bit, go food court, eat lunch together, then rachel and cheangming go for their barbeque, leave me and plato. waaaaaaalau, make me come all the way from one side of the island to the next then run away. lols

rachel very bored, so decided to take picture of me eating my lunch,



another pic by rachel, the other guy in it is plato, he so informally dressed..


then after that i go grandma house. when reach her house and went into room i saw my cousin sleeping! haha, she was sleeping with her hello kitty toys. xP and my cousin was with her, pei her while she sleeping.

this my my cousin chloe! she very young loh, like 2 or 3 only x)

this one another cousin belinda in the picture xP



and dont know why today i feel like taking pictures of everyone! so, with my camera, i went around taking random photos of some people, some were so reluctant to be taken and ran away at sight, while the others who were more willing stayed for a while x) and these are what i got.. xP!

this one is zachary! x) he always cover my camera before i finish 3.2.1. so i must 5.4.3, then take photo to trick him xDD wahaha.



another photo of zachary! xP his front tooth drop off so obvious xD


this is my youngest cousin for now! only 9 months old!


my baby cousin! only that he looks blurblur in this pic x)


this is zhouzhi! giving a dumb look



me playing with my cousins, see i so good lohr, pei them x)



group photo! everyone sitting on me and my cousin. on above me wearing blue shirt is my brother, the top right is zhouzhi's twin, zhoujie, one beside me is another cousin, janet. x) group pyramid stackup! haha. the one behind is my uncle, sitting way back in background.

lols, this one more people, and since zachary cannot find spot in center came to front to sit on me, you can see how squeezed i was lol,



my uncle! this is the one give me info for my econs project de x)

this one is video i bully my cousin belinda.. xP LOL

then after this fun time i went to my dad's friend's house. he had bbq and he cook lamb chop, pork chop, lamb leg. waah, so nice x) i ate 1 pork chop and 4 lamb chops and a lot of potatoes that he made xP so nice sia. if everyday got this dinner i become like hongwei size ler x) my dad's friend was uncle albert. he also invited a lot of my dad's friends that i knew xP and they have small children le! we had a lot of meat, potatos and chocolaaaate. and my parents drank a lot of red wine.



then after that we went to uncle albert's house and my bro and all the small kiddies played with the WII console.


then i was walking about, talking to all the xiao didi and xiao mei mei. then i found uncle jason's daughter and i found her quite cute loh! x) she that pink dress girl on the top picture. she very quiet de, and when u ask her she will very shy shy xDD. then i got to be the one to "allocate" games. cause my brother and some other about his age de people go take the WII console dun let the other xiao didi and xiao meimei play.


but in the end everything was okay bah, cause a xiao didi complain to his dad and the dad come ask why no let him play LOL.


in the end i was playing a psp with uncle jason's daughter. xD. then must ask, you want to play. then she will nod her head. then after each round she return me and i help her set next game. lols. then that night 10+ went home, but before that i took picture with uncle jason's 2 daughters and one nephew.


lols i just realized after i reached home she looks a bit like noelle in the picture, duno why. but in real life she looks a bit different loh xP

first post i put pictures de. since my previous one the computer simply refuses to recognise my memory card. too bad loh. x) but i try lah, get the photos in haha


11:30 PM

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

ahh fux! what the fux is wrong with this godam week. its already fuxed up enough that ive broken but this shittin week, losing my wallet. frag lah, this bullshit.

its supposed to be chinese new year and a happy occasion but this week is seriously too faxked up to be true == breaking up already make me depress then this losing money, 160$ heart pain lah.

gan lah, can curse whole gdamn day for all i fxing care. got tell some people but cant spill my feelings. if someone piss the shit out of me i will rap3 him == trust me on that

why can't my good friends be around me when i need them, fux the distance, i wna be in shanghai, fcuk i need to talk to sam, i need to talk to him so badly, i need to talk to candia, i need to talk to someone..

i fken miss kj, shit, we broke, shit, i miss her. why doesnt life give me a freaking break,.. wan happen also happen on different week mah.

anyone.. talk to me.. sigh..

7:46 PM

Monday, February 4, 2008

heeeeya people, so many more stuff happened than usual, x) got one happy, got one to anticipate, got one serious, got one sad.. 4 events that happened or will come to happen soon, hah. not including common tests..

lets start with the happy one.. i went out with my shanghai friends on sunday! at first go with lester to paragon there sitting the bus, and saw kenneth! but stupid bus skip one stop when lester was in urgent need for toilet.. so we ran back to paragon and found one toilet for him to relieve himself. but after that cannot find kenneth for a while, then we noticed him in front of paragon sitting at stone steps wearing this '90s shirts and shorts and he also wearin what branded watch and branded specs lah, rich ass. also got what touchphone, jealous sia me.

then plato and rachel and cheangming plus her bro came and we just went around window shopping then went to this bookstore to buy stationaries, roflmao, then later went to this toy shop selling all kinds of wierd crap and some innovative goods x) laughed at the crap, bought the good stuff, prolly for some people's birthday gift, and plato bought this gdam rubber bawl. and this smiley face thingy that was like half a ball with its insides scooped out. when you invert it and wait for 2 seconds it will apparently pop up and hit whatever is up there, or wherever you direct it too.

then we left the shop and got some lunch, ate some oct balls and had some random jap/korean food. went to arcade again after that, all lost to me at basketball thing x) but cant blame them, they never play for such a long time too, and i aint that pro either, yeh. played some sniping, some aircraft game. play 1 hour plus then already 3.15. appalled sia, reach paragon at 11 then one blink 4 hours gone.

then went around again, lester looking for billabong and shoes, as per normal, then the rest of us following him. then lester complainhis leg very pain, then make me piggy back him. then everyone was laughing said we looked obscene and everyone was looking at us. then he come down then run around saying hes not ghay xD.

after tht we went burger king to eat, lester and plato playin with their rubber balls and smiley face half scooped insides thing, bouncing it everywhere, including the food. then one of the managers said we making too much noise aaaaaha.

then after that we walk a bit more then farewell ler. supposed me and lester go but rachel tagged along. then at the mrt platform we saw MARCUS. he came back from shanghai and was with his 16yr old girlfriend. laaaawls, what a small world man. he went shopping teddies for his girlfriend and was bullying lester a bit. then after a while i pointed out to lester we sitting wrong train then went to other direction the train. 45 minutes reach back chinese garden then we went home ler.

then this is the anticipating part, part1. this saturday got another meet up at cheangming's house! HAH. and got more people coming loh, what bryan valerie daokai and some others. surely fun de lah haha. but today monday only, still have 4 more days plus a few more hours x)

now is serious one.. i became an ESCORT today! escort anna home! ah well, make sure she gets home without fainting and stuff lols. maybe got more in between those lines but aint gna give more explanations to it.

actually escorting also quite fun lah hah, met sooriyah at school then walk to station together. sooriyah keep talking a lot of crap as usual, keep making me laugh. but after he leave become so quiet and solo liao. then escort escort escort, reach below her house then say gdbye and i go back my house xD take 1 hour lohr, dun play play. i also dun have a salary. if mr chua never ask me to do it i would not have done it lohr please, haha.

then sad liao, today i broke up with her. HER. lasted for some time i have to admit. gaaaah. i wna talk to my secret confidants. pour my content out to them, make me feel better. cant talk too much here, cause buay song and bo liao people always talk crap and nonsence de. but yeah, from sept till now, was quite happy.. i have my reasons and she has her own. aint gna hold on to her unless i have what it takes..

alright lighten my load with anticipation part2!

ITS SOMEONE'S BIRTHDAY SOON!

nanananana! you never told it it earlier! so i couldnt get yr present at paragon.. but heck, i will try to get a present for you! give you an early present and wishing you a great holiday man!

okay! now is commontest. dabian english cher gime 9/25 nia. fail fail fail. stupid ghay dabian set record for me to fail when i dun have slack. maybe that day tired nia, but she nvr teach us format loh, what can copy. nvr tell us still give us this gdam paper. so short and so dumb, she looks comical when she does her hand movements. and she got pwnt by ivan! HAH. memorable.

then got chinese paper, that day kena chinese block and writer's block write 300 words, so marks quite low, kena penalised. lycia like mouth big lidat, if yre reading then pardon my frankness, like dno when to diam like that. always talk so much, not needed also talk. you tell her secrets then its your worst decision of your life.

then math commontest! aiyo 26/35. also bad, miss my A1 by 0.7 marks. dabian, cannot round up meh. that 0.7 marks cost me a lot of grieve. oh yeah! sooriyah when cher say his name he get top, his eyes like POPPED OUT- lols, that picture if taken was PRICELESS. laughed my ass out, xD

but then today just take history test, this test make me worry so much loh, dunid read also can score. but only thing is no time. take 5 minutes to think then no time liao.. then cher also start late loh, start late end early! no fair lah,. but then after that mithunn left today. poor him, man's worst horror hanging on to him for second week liao.

and next week. physics commontest! dno whether he scaring us or what nia, mrkoh last year say our paper he be very evil, then in the end quite easy x) but later this year he sadist how ._. hard to say, must study lei. haha.

oo, reminded me! this year i handed up more homework than last year! other than chem.. but! YAY! gd for me hah.

haha type so much ler, take so long. tomorrow still need 5.30 wake up sia. go school finish my physics lab paper and amath. jia you wo! x)

c yeh all fer now then ha.

btw! photos would be edited it soon! ^^

9:24 PM

Saturday, February 2, 2008

waaaaha. new blog once again. lets see how long this one will last me x)

mm, first month of school over ler, more fun than i thought it was gna be haha. to think one short month encompassed so many events x) we even had a 2 nighter camp and first class outing already..

ah well, but pass so long ler so lets settle on a topic tht happened lately! like ytd at jurong point! x), ytd went there with lester to buy a new wallet for him, then went to look at some sport shoes.. and then ate at the food court. then lester was so obsessed with finding commonwealth students after i said lycia and the rest were going there for a movie. after he found a big group, and it actually was them, he got so enthu he was like "weixuan weixuaN! faster finish your food! come see this commonwealth people! got big group! one is fat fat one and got this very noisy girl, apparently hes describing hongwei and lycia, then dragg me over. now what to do? say hi to each other lohr! xD..

after that we went to the arcade and played this basketball game together, even though i scored 150 i still won him >x), but my arm so sore after playing from throwing the bballs.. then follow his aunt forcefully making him buy clothes and see him buay tahan the look so funny xD laugh my ass off. then lidat 2 hours gone liao, then bump into lycia they all 2 more times they say i stalkin them sia. where i stalk them. stalk them also get nth sia boring.. xD

mm.. ytd maybe a little boring bah.. but tomorrow i got 2 choices..
first, follow dad sit one of his ex-boss de big big boat, or..
second, go out with the rest of the gang who came back from shanghai to orchard road!
so tough choices.. either meet friends or go discover something new! wonder which one i will choose tomorrow.. but either choices i must still find time to study for commontest. stupid test, once a week. stress seh, and i very lazy boy. those who knew me well enough will know that hah. i dun even hand up my normal homework sometimes, chem phys chinese. lols,

mm, waha, i think soon i will pok someone liao x), i gave him warning so many times he dunwan listen not my prob liao loh, later he piss me off too much i rap3 him then he know xD. i knw i will pok someone but i dno who i will pok, hah, see who piss me off first. later people see me then they tio appaled, omfg! weixuan violent! xD..

till that day comes, i'll be waiting. x) for many things to happen

4:46 PM